just had a bit of a drink, sanmig light lang not that much pa. anyway i feel a bit light headed. parang nag espresso. parang expecting for something to happen na hinde !

anyway i need to sleep now. i need to go home.

pero yun intay ko pa yung friend ko na umuwi.

aaaah since i have a bit of time to write here, i'll spew off a bit about myself since i haven't written anything worth reading in a while.
right now i'm getting plumb crazy about anime, weiss kreuz and sakura. also about George Macdonald's "Light Princess" ---> i loved the Prince there grabe !

in three days i had a talk with three christian friends, yung kapitbahay ko na si arlene, tapos si honey on the phone and then teri for dinner and coffee. different kuwentuhan pero parang may sinasabi sa akin si God. I should prepare myself na. The discipline the discernment. I can't go on being always a creature of nonchalance. nothing will happen if i continue that way. di ko magagawa yung purpose ko, di ko mago-glorify si God.

if i prepare siguro maayos na rin ni God yung daan ko. ako lang talaga ang nagpapatagal ng lahat. anyway i pray na maalala ko parati ito. na hindi siya mabaon sa limot.

all the preachings, the readings, the conversations i had with fellow christians are pointing to the same thing. i should be preparing. there's a nice kuwento by tozer, the battles won or lost are won or lost in the preparation not in the battle itself. importante talaga ang pag hahanda, lalo na kung ito na ang pinapagawa sa iyo.

hirap nga lang mag - obey minsan. tapos ang dami pang hindrances. dati di ko napapansin na meron. pero ngayon i agree, marami nga. friendships, things i enjoy too much.

there's this really helpful phrase from Susanna Wesley: what made her be diligent when she was a kid easily distracted by play was the thinking that she should never spend more time for pleasure more than she spends time for religious growth. man! so true.
i should keep that in mind.