His marvelous ways
I know that the God I worship is an awesome, powerful God. He has done marvelous things since the beginning of time. With Him nothing is impossible. I know all these things. I read all about it in the Scriptures, I declare it in worship songs, yet whenever one of His actual work takes place right before my eyes and personally touches me, I can't help but be amazed.
Today was one of those jaw dropping times for me. I have a programming project, it's a major one and i was given two weeks to finish. I dilly dallied and did my other tasks first, procrastinating like crazy and waiting until the last two days to start moving. I'm the type of person who does not do anything halfway (when I've put my mind to it), and so i nitpicked and made drafts and algos, and modified, and made drafts again, until i was satisfied. i used up my one day for that, just the framework, the skeleton of my application - the algorithm. Now i have a day and a night to implement it (boy! was i kidding myself!) some of the things i thought up, i haven't used before, so just finding out how to implement them took quite a considerable amount of time. I hemmed and hawed until 6 am on the following day and i knew i was doomed. I'm not even halfway through and the commands that i thought would work at one go needed to be tweaked and re-tweaked. I was feeling grim and sleepy. My hands were numb from the full aircon blast which nobody else was absorbing. I started having clammy hands despite the cold and thoughts of despair were creeping in. I was reverting to old habits that God has graciously saved me from in the past. Half past 6 and I knew i was in trouble, there were two alternatives for me then, give in or run to God. I chose the second option. I ran to God for help. I knew that He can help even if at that moment, things are so bleak that i didn't know how He can. I ran to the nearest "closet" i can find and prayed a short but to the point prayer, recognizing my incapability and praising His magnanimity. He calmed me. I can do nothing further and decided to go home and sleep for at least two hours. Bits of solutions were still running through my head as i dozed off and some even made their way to my dreams. It was hard to wake up but I was able to go back to the office , expecting the worst (i won't finish the progs on time). I went to the office earlier than usual and continued on. Knowing that i won't finish it but with a heart strangely filled with hope. Sure enough Romans 5:4-6 became true for me. "..Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us." The launch is postponed. Now i have two weeks to wrap up the project. I never thought that would happen! Not in a million years but God never really ceases to amaze! My problem was partly my fault, through my shortcomings, but I called upon God in dire need and He heard me.
