one of those murphy's law days
category: musings
today is one of those proverbial bad days where everything that can go wrong, did go wrong.
it started with my missing my morning chem 31 lecture, (i rationalized once again that if i miss today's 1 and a half hour of lecture, i can make it up with the stuff i'm going to research on and will find out by reading) -> unfortunately this is just that, a rationalization. i didn't really read stuff but ended up watching half an hour of rocko,15 minutes of hey arnold, and 30 minutes of good morning kris (they featured today's young dancers, anime and some talented-but-not-so-sikat girls who can dance who IMHO are really great dancers but highly unappreciated), so anyway, i ended up flushing that 1 and a half hour down the drain (the rest of the time left i spent preparing food and washing dishes and what not)
- prof torrecampo texted that there's a problem in my registration papers and should photocopy the change of Mat to be officially registered in her class (Comp. Lit. Children’s Literature)
- in chem class, we were the only ones left (the 3 of us - Belay, Migo, and me) to test the unknown organic compound and find out by deduction what it is (it was so sad to be in a class of 3 buhuhuh and at the end of the period we were fine-tooth-combing the Merck Index books for our guesses for the possible compounds, until the teacher said we can just text her the answers and do our research on the internet)
-i ran to ma'am torrecampo's pigeon hole to leave the change of mat copy, got back to the chem lab sweating like the proverbial pig
- spilled NaOH on my wounded finger (ouch! - good thing it was highly diluted to a mere 5%, still stung a heck of a lot though)
- while asking the teacher about the steps in identifying my unknown i was doing this weird habit of mine of twisting my foot outward, i felt a sudden, thwock, i looked down and the sole of my right shoe went off!!!, i thought i was going to go home limping (with one bare foot), good thing Merrel designed their shoes with double soles! (whew), i just snuck the renegade sole into my bag and hoped that nobody noticed (now i'm finally appreciating that there's only three of us in class today)
- i spilled t-butyl chloride on my left hand.. oooh cold... must wash hand in the sink, fast!
*side note, in my whole sem in chem 31 i don't think i spilled any reagent on any part of my hand, except today, on this very special day
- went to CS Lib to search for my mystery compound, used 2 computers to search (one for the Merck Index, the other for surfing the Net), i had to use 2 different computers to give way to others, when i found a suitable candidate on the web i was going to write it but i noticed my pen was missing! i panicked for a few second, it was really lost! the girl on the computer i used earlier didn't see it, it ain't anywhere on the floor, i was despairing and cursing under my breath. good thing i was not that panicked that i still got to ask the manong who was manning the work stations, turned out he saw it lying around and thought it best to keep it in the lost in found lest somebody else should happen to pick it up, whew! silver parker pen retrieved! -> the thoughts that went through my head while i was searching! (grabe sino kaya kumuha! eeeyyyyaaaaargh! )
- nag hang yung computer just when i was getting to the good parts, and then, the CS Lib closed at 5 pm :(
- rode the ikot jeep-> withdrew money because i was running low on cash
- thought that i should continue with my quest to search for the missing compound, decided to continue it on one of those internet places in SC
spent a good 1 and a half hour there, just soaking myself with every organic compound out there with 133 degrees as melting point, found a good deal of them ... quite a good deal I tell ya! managed to pare them down to three by the process of elimination
- my books and papers fell down twice while i was clacking away on the keyboards
- both my hands reek of the weird smelling compound i was trying to crack (i was hoping the people beside me don't have sharp noses for such odors, i'm conscious of such things because i do have a sharp nose and i can smell a bad smell a mile away)
- as i was stashing my stuff on the bag, an incompletely closed stapler caught on my index finger and made a small gash! eyouch! (part 2)
- i paid for the internet usage
- waited for 15 minutes all the jeeps are full!, decided to walk a bit to the initial entrance to SC, got a ride finally
- traffic: crawl speed near EDSA
- meeting frirends for dinner- gutom na! and it's almost 8!
rode the MRT, whew buti it's not that crowded, i can still breathe clean smelling air (or so i think)
- texted my teacher the three possible compounds
- got her text back-> the answer is in my three choices ! YES!!! happiness, joy! i read the text while standing on my fave SRO spot sa MRT (the cushy part where the train boxes are connected to each other, where you can stand with your back resting on the dark felt wall), i was alone but can't help but smile
- met with Berni and Min
- had dinner at SugarHouse-yum salpicado
- met with Jack
- played some games and had coffee at Hobbes (fave place in greenbelt)
- talked with the girls about life decisions, what's important in life, etc--> no conclusions but hey! at least we have somebody we can discuss it with!
- went home, finally at 11
there were many points in this narration where i cursed, or felt like cursing (which is the same anyway)
i prayed about it a while ago and asked for forgiveness
i know that the moment i say, *O shit!* or %$$#!@! or some such expletives, it means at that moment I'm not looking at God, that I'm not trusting Him enough.The situation scares me so much that i forget about Him, who He is in my life, and what He is capable of. I mean didn't He say that He will not leave me nor forsake me, yet the moment i feel a bit unsteady, i panic and feel - yoicks! if this drastic thing can happen what's stopping other dreadful things from happening? and the string of bad stuff just keeps on rolling.
but one sobering thought that saved me a bit was the thought that, hey what else could go wrong? on days like these i feel like if a truly horrible accident that can just about kill me happens I won't be the least bit surprised. but that’s just the point! hy am I panicking? why am I losing my trust? i'm not dead yet, am i? and even so... if today i should die, God will still be in charge of my soul, so there's nothing to worry about is there? ---> and that thought sobers me up, even for just a bit. and slowly i trust Him again. once again i gain my footthold and am not balancing on a 1/4 " beam flailing my arms to the side in a helpless attempt to balance my self. once again i'm safe on the ground. He has brought me there. He is showing me how safe and happy I can be when i do trust Him-> He proved His point by making the end of the day fun, fulfilling and filling for me. it was spent eating good food, having a surprisingly serious talk with a usually "kalokohan" type set of friends, and capping the night with illy coffee (yum!) and unsolvable puzzles (those rafters sure got my head on a spin).
posted by julie @ 9:15 AM
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